And next come the locusts

Here we are - in the midst of a pandemic. Never, ever did I think this would become a reality. As a nurse (and maybe as a mom), my brain automatically goes into, "What's the worst thing that could happen" mode. Having thought out various "predicaments" I often feel ready to act, should anything occur.
The truth is, however, I didn't expect some of the virtual loveliness I have witnessed. Let me give you a list because I want you stay positive with me:

I'm listening to a live concert on Facebook. Nate Lienard has been making feel peaceful for almost 2 hours with his calming voice
Neighbors are taking care of each other
Families are going for walks
People are picking up trash
I see people of all ages on their bikes
I've seen endless offers of help
Compliments to people who don't earn a living wage are endless
Small businesses are creative in trying to survive and people really, really want them to succeed

I just don't want people to forget, ever, the goodness that exists. Don't forget the influence and power you have in this universe and how you use it.

As a school nurse, I confess, I'm suffering through this a bit. My patients are home with their parents. I'm at home with my kids - which, in truth- there is nowhere I'd rather be. However, I feel guilt that I'm not helping like a hospital nurse might be. My goal during these days will be to find what I'm meant to do during these time. How do I create a new role for myself.

Oddly enough, while on a jog, I had downloaded a podcast that I hadn't realized would "get in my head" so much. Moreover, my husband teaches design thinking and while he's probably thought of it, why don't I apply the process to my life. Take a listen: https://www.npr.org/2017/08/28/546716951/you-2-0-how-silicon-valley-can-help-you-get-unstuck
There's a line in this somewhere that states something along the lines of: there may not be a perfect version of you, but there is probably a better version you that is achievable.

Stay hopeful.

It's now 3/24/21. I'm done. I sad. I feel lost. I don't know what time it is. What day is it? When will this end? Do I care if you wear a mask? Yea, I still care about that. I have not been hopeful over the past few months. Maybe I can start again.